To get this blog started I thought it would be appropriate to kick it off with an introduction to who I am and a bit about my life. At the recent 'Developing my Loving Self' Assistant Group I asked Jesus 'What are some examples of intrinsic qualities of someone's personality?' He answered and said well 'What are some things that you suspect are a part of your real nature that have generally been condemned or that you feel embarrassed about or that you feel you cant do because of your environment?' I could only come up with one thing and that was that I thought I was a bit of a comedian, that being funny is a part of my nature but is something that I generally don't put on display unless I really trust and know you. It was a great exercise where he pointed out that its really hard to know one's true personality and nature because the real self has been suppressed and completely undeveloped. For most of us we don't know who we trully are and that the only way to discover our true self is to allow ourselves to be more emotional and connected to our will and work through breaking down our facade. He says, answering the question becomes an endeavour of own will in discovering and is something that I will need to decide to do for myself. So in answer to the question about who I am, I am not 100% sure at this moment. I know I love music and spend most of my time developing this passion in this area but in terms of internal intrinsic qualities of my nature I so far don't really understand who I am because I have never truly lived a life as myself only what other people have expected or taught me to be. So what I have decided to do and since asking that question is to go on a journey and find out. I have pondered a lot about who I might be, and I have a memory of when I was 5 years old, I really wanted to learn how to ride a bike. No one put the idea into my head it was just something that I really wanted to do and so I told my mum and got her to drop me over to my cousins house so I could teach myself. I didn't ask my mum to teach me or for anyone to show me. I spent the whole day with my cousin doing bog laps around the house on her little bike, wobbling, falling off and getting back up. I wouldn't give up until finally by the end of the day I could ride a bike. Little 5 year old me taught myself how to ride a bike within one day! So I feel that is another part of my true nature, I have a very strong and determined will and when I put my mind to something I wont quit until I learn it. Unfortunately this strong will has also been used in a very negative direction in my life and it was the same, I wouldn't quit until I learned the lesson's the hard way and boy did I learn some hard hard lessons. Although I may not know a lot more of who I truly am at the moment I can share a bit about my life experiences and it is my hope that as I do this I may begin to understand myself and the experiences I have been through. I hope to uncover hidden gems within my life that may give me an indication or glimpse into my real self and who I am and I hope that it may help me to remember things that I may have forgotten about myself. It is impossible to share every single detail on ones life but I will attempt to do the best I can over a few chapters. Love Thaylia Comments are closed.
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